hello byebye!

2011-04-13T06:07:00.000-07:00

GETTING BETTER. :)

HIIIIIII~~~~

feel like blogging again so ya :P

today i went for the FOP again ya! although it's a total useless day bec we spent abt 70% of the time using com, it's quite fun. (at least much better than the 1st day)

i kinda like the people in my class/course now ya, nice people ^^

but still!!!!!

I DONT WANT MY COURSE.

went to clementi with andrea and met xm and santo ^^

met up with sheryl and eugenie after that!!!!! <3<3<3

GREAT TIME!!!!!!

okay im so tired now i keep falling asleep while doing things.

ZOMBIFIED.

so bye~~~

2011-04-11T23:21:00.001-07:00

MY LIFE SUCKS.

OKAY I AM VERY DEPRESSED AND ANGRY NOW SO I AM BLOGGING.

so ya!!!! hiiii ytd i went for the FOP in sp for my fucking useless interior design. -__-

the people there are nice..... (can say so) & friendly but it's just that the course sucks to the earth's core.

i think i will either die of sickness(to go school) or depression if im gonna be stucked in there for like 3 years? :(

SIGHHHHHHH.

conclusion: interior design is a waste of money time and just everything.

im only interested in that ^(silk screening) hehe :P

they have like 3 classes for interior design.

GRAPHIC CLASS: INCLUDES PHOTOGRAPHIC AND TYPOGRAPHY.

for photographic you know what? they SUGGEST us to get a DSLR EACH. _|_

oh fuck you? just for that CLASS.

BASIC DRAWING CLASS: drawing nude models hahas.

then the lecturer told us if this course is not our 1st choice she suggests us to reconsider.

i really suspect i suffered from severe concussion when i put this course as my 10th choice???

it shouldnt even appear in my 12 choices.

sorry im really not a ARTS person......

SIGHHHHH IM SO DEPRESSED PLEASE LET MY APPEAL TO ANOTHER COURSE BE SUCCESSFUL!!!!!!! :'(

IF NOT I REALLY WILL DIE. :'(

2011-03-05T08:20:00.000-08:00

我很伤心 :'(

2011-02-15T05:55:00.001-08:00

i feel like I'm crying every single day.
everything is going so fucking wrong. what I'm writing is not even half of what I'm feeling. I'm so fucking tired I should just fucking die....... :'(

you always expect me to listen to you but you never really bother to hear me out.
Maybe I'm really stupid to treasure this so much. if not I would not feel this way or cry till my eyes are so swollen.
fuck my life.
我们以前不是这样的.........
why? aiya everything is going wrong _|_

2011-01-31T03:50:00.000-08:00

DIFFERENT.

things are different from how they used to be in school already. people are different also. drift apart, duh. and I don't feel the same :(
happy family is good and fine. they make me feel exactly how things were back then during school time and all.

to you I'm just someone, a substitute I think when other friends are not around.
if not, you'll never come to me....
but I understand we're not as close as compared to schooling that time already, so maybe I should not still value you this much.
I'm always forgotten anyway on the other side. only happy family remembers and value me :(

我对你们从来都不重要.

2011-01-06T07:44:00.000-08:00

PRETEND.

I'm so fucking tired of pretending. nobody gives a fuck anyway.

i dont like this period. i wanna go back school or work, at least during those times at times i dont have time to think abt all this bullshit.

FUCK MY LIFE.

wo zhen de hen lei le. no one cares anyway. stupid girl.

2011-01-04T23:15:00.000-08:00

is it just me or things really suck and changed these days? :'(
I feel like shit. seriously. F.M.L.
2010 was a much happier year I'd say.

2011-01-04T20:42:00.000-08:00

DEAD ALREADY.

hihihihi. i'm so bored thats why im back to blogging. :P

hehehe. but dont think anyone still reads this blog ya. anyway!!!!

these few days were damn good. (Y)

1.had a 7-day-work-marathon @ IMM. thought it would suck like hell but noooo!!!! :)

had fun with colleagues although sometimes i really feel like quitting work bec of some PMS person. :P

2.first time reach home so late @ 3am and doing stupid things.

-chasing the last train when my bladder is going to burst :P

-rushing for last bus yet couldnt make it then end up chasing cabs.

-stayed so late @ a mall till there's only the few of us left in the entire shopping centre. :D

3.countdown & steamboat with colleagues!!!!! :)

-fun and totally unexpected NEWYEAR celebration! :D:D:D

4.shortest time that we got close with others yet without feeling awkward.

really really love this job and hope will be working with them end of the year or another time!!!! :)

okay had a break starting from Monday and went for a movie + pool with colleagues. ^^

had fun of course! :)

today i'm going for crystal jade buffet with minming fanxin jessie beatrice chanel angie brandon alvin andre and santo!!!!! :):):)

it'd be fun ya!!!! :D

hehehe cant wait.

2010-10-08T22:10:00.000-07:00

4E3 <3;

BIOLOGY STUDENTS <3

MISS CHAI <3

GRADUATED. :'(

this place might not have the best facilities in the world, might not be the best, but it's the most beautiful, warmest place ever.

it is where all the best friends and people are. <3

GIRLSSSS. <3

REMEMBER WHENS...

we got the shock of our lives when we found out last minute that we had to stay in this class bec the classes arrangement got screwed up.

we gossiped, talked, laughed and gave each other ugly nicknames which lasted for 2 solid years.

teachers screaming and shouting at us for doing dramas. and hated us for our immaturity but we dont give a damn.

slept in classes complaining how much homework mr sia gave us that caused us to deprive of sleep.

forgot about the homeworks that miss how and miss chai gave us and only cared about mr sia, miss solastri and mrs thia's homeworks.

"i hope mrs thia never come", "i hope miss solastri never come."

those i-hopes so-and-so never come for school so that we could have the period talking nonsense. :D

"OH SHIT I DIDNT DO MR SIA HOMEWORK! LEND ME COPY LEHHH!"

was the first reaction everyone gave. :)

"WHAT LESSON IS IT AFTER RECESS? MISS SOLASTRI?! OH FML I DIDNT BRING MINING FOR MEANING!"

HAHAHA.

"GOT DO EMATH ANOT? LATER SHE PMS AGAIN AND FLIP TABLE AH."

the CMI drawings of "couples" on the whiteboard and got chased around in the classroom.

sleeping for the whole of 3 period of biology and slacked outside toilets during mr poon(sp?)'s lesson and got scolded by him. :P

having to share packed food during the H1N1 period.

doing all sorts of crazy things in secondary 3.

IN SEC 4....

all the teachers praised us for being more matured and ontask. :D

promised to be the best class in the cohort to mdm heng.

complaining about miss francheska during basics+ft teachers period to mdm heng.

sleeping in chinese classes and sick of the hardcore-chinese-week before Chinese O levels whereby we do papers after papers every single day.

discussed about the class tee which does not seem to be progessing at all. HAHAHA. :)

getting so happy and looking forward to the last homework-giving-day on friday!

complain so much abt FOCUS every single day whereby we hesitate to go opposite for food and rushed through our meals and run back to school in 30 minutes' time. :)

complain so much abt ERP too. how tiring is it to stay in school until 9 and reaching home at almost 1030.

having picnics in ERP and complain about people blowing bubbles. HAHAHA.

sneaking out for nightwalk with 10 people and got caught by teacher and ran around the school. :P

talked abt ghost stories in the school in the middle of parade square at night.

stressed and worried whenever we see the countdown dates in canteen...

starting the trend of sharing food with one another and cutting queues. :D

broke classroom windows in the attempt of pushing bags into it. hehehe.

last day of school, the graduation when people cried. :'(

i will miss all these moments damn much. :(

i love 4E3 forever! <3

remember that this graduation is not the end! :)

2010-09-20T06:52:00.001-07:00

GOODBYE.

it's funny how we used to stick to
each other like glue and now we barely even acknowledge each other.
it's funny how we used to text each other everyday and had that so called "closest friend" stuff and we barely
even talk now.
even when I tried talking nicely, it still doesn't work out.
but it's sad how it's our last few months together and I'm facing this change.
but I guess I'm getting used to it.
I'm not sad, maybe I saw this coming.

by now you still doesn't understand why I'm
acting this way, you don't understand me at all. :(
then what I could only say is, you've already lost me.

2010-09-17T21:49:00.000-07:00

Stick with friends who saw you, when nobody else did.
Stick with friends who you can call assholes, and know it’s a code word for I love you. Stick with friends who look at your mistakes, and think it’s damn awesome.
Stick with friends who don’t give a fuck when you’re crying, because they know you’re stronger than that.
Stick with friends who were true to you from the very start.

and I know who are those few. :)

2010-09-11T07:55:00.000-07:00

TO TAY TZE JUN, BE LAN DUN! :)

HAHAHA. OMGOD SO SORRY I REALLY DIDN'T MEAN TO MISS OUT YOUR NAME IN THE PRESENT!!!!
I just realised it and I'm soooooo sorry.
please don't be angry and curse me(although I know you definitely did!)
HAHAHA. DUIBUQI LAHHHH. :)
THANK YOU SO MUCH BRANDON TAY!!!!
THANK YOU FOR....

1)paying the 7% GST which I know it's not very cheap! :)
2)pounding the digestive biscuit and helping to bake! :)
3)lying to me and giving me a surprise although your acting cannot make it. :P

but it really didn't cross my mind that it'll be in the club! :p
see I make one whole post to thank you leh! :D
touched anot? I think its enough to make up for my mistakes hor. :P

HAHAHA XIEXIE NI ALOT! :D

2010-09-06T21:40:00.000-07:00

THESE PERFECT MY MEMORIES.:)

THANKS SO MUCH ANDRE FOR COMING DOWN JUST TO PASS ME THIS!

I SWEAR THIS IS DAMN SWEEEET. (Y)

THANK YOU SO MUCH XINMIN FOR ALL THESE! <3

I KNOW ALL THESE DOESNT COME CHEAP AND YOU'VE SPENT SO MUCH TIME ON IT!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! <3

i really am happy to have you as my friend and i'll never want to lose you.

please dont lose contact after this year okay! :)

i'm so honoured that i'm someone you said "you're worth it."

really, thanks alot. love you always. ({})

THANK YOU FANXIN BABE! <3

for spending so much time on preparing this! :):):)

and only manage to sleep for so few hours.

i love you so much. ({})

THANKS CHANEL AND MADELINE! <3>

THANKS CHANEL FOR LYING TO ME BUT STILL MANAGE TO COME IN THE END! :):):)

THANKS MADELINE FOR COMING DOWN EVEN THOUGH YOU HAD SCHOOL YESTERDAY AND TODAY.

AI SI NI MEN. <3

THANK YOU ANDRE, ALVIN, ANGIE, JESSIE, PEIYING! <3>

HAHAHA. THANKS FOR RECORDING: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNIS, WE LOVE YOU."

THANK YOU ALVIN!

IM SO HONOURED THAT IM THE FIRST ONE YOU MADE A CARD FOR! XIEXIE NI! :D

I KEPT READING IT AND I'D NEVER GET SICK OF IT! :):):)

THANK YOU SIRACHUT! :):):)

HAHAHA ALTHOUGH THE DOG CHAIN WAS IRRITATING BUT I STILL LOVE IT! :)

THANKS FOR ALL THESE SANTO! :):):)

AND ALL THE HARD WORK YOU'VE PUT IN! I APPRECIATE IT VERY MUCH!

I LIKE YOUR CARD! :D

I LOVE YOU ALL! <3

2010-09-06T21:03:00.000-07:00

MY SWEETEST SIXTEEN! <3

06.09.10 is the best birthday i've ever had.

im so lucky that i've all these friends with me, in the last year of secondary life. <3

i love them alot, really. :)

okay soooo....

actually the plan was:

1)minming and I are gonna catch a movie first.

2)but have to meet up with brandon first to get minming's money! :(

2)meet up with fanxin and xinmin(those people who can come) at vivo

3)meet at 3 and go prawning(which is so late! :( )

i was very sad. :P

bec so late! how to prawn! :(

then what we actually did yesterday was....

i woke up damn late and saw santo's message.

he said he was at my house downstairs and wanted to pass me my present.

cause he will not be able to make it later :(

so i went down and took the present! :D

then...

1)meet up with minming first but we were late :P

2)got to go to the yatch club to meet brandon to get "the money"

HAHAHA.

3)he didnt bring the money down! minming was so angry bec we need to go all the way up to get the money!

i was like "tsk! still must go up! no time for prawning already lor! :("

then we reached the room, outside the door.

i heard some noises inside but still i didnt suspect anything.

BRANDON: *KNOCKING VERY HARD ON THE DOOR* MUM OPEN THE DOOR LAH!

CB.

ME: :O OMGOD SO BAD!

*SOME LAUGHING INSIDE*

ME: *SUSPICIOUS LOOK*

MINMING: MOVE IN FRONT A BIT. :)

ME: HUH DONT WANT LAH, I ALSO DONT KNOW HIS FAMILY.

BRANDON: OH I THINK BRYAN BROUGHT HIS FRIENDS HERE TOO.

ME: *THINKING "HUHHHHH.... I THINK I SHOULD GO DOWN"

BRANDON: *KEPT KNOCKING AND SHOUTING*

(SO PAISEH THE CLEANER WAS STARING AT US. :P

*THE DOOR FINALLY OPENED.*

brandon moved in first then minming sorta push me in.

*CHANEL CALLING ON THE PHONE*

CHANEL:HELLO JENNIS, SORRY ME AND MADELINE CANNOT COME.

ME:HUHHHHH MAD ALSO CANT? :(

OKAY THEN...

CHANEL:SORRY AH....

HAHAHA. then....

there was no one inside.

ME: *THINKING: SO STRANGE! I HEARD NOISES BUT THERE'S NO ONE!"

then i saw the decoration hanging: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"

ME: *WALKING TOWARDS TO SOFA AND SAT DOWN.*

"HMM... I SMELL SOMETHING FISHY..."

(i was kidding!)

BRANDON: FISHY YOUR SAI LAH! HAHAHA. MUM!!!!

"BOOOO!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNIS!!!!!!!!! HAHAHHAA"

then alot of the popping things!

EVERYONE WAS THERE AND I WAS SO SHOCKED!!!!!

SO MANY PEOPLE CAME AND THOSE ARE THE ONES WHO LIED TO ME THAT THEY CANT!!!!

ALVIN, JESSIE, PEIYING, SANTO, BRANDON ALL CAME WHEN THEY SAY THEY CANT! >:(

HAHAHA.

ME: OMGOD YOU GUYS LIED TO ME! :@

JESSIE! WHY ARE YOU HERE? I THOUGHT YOU NEED TO CUSTOMIZE YOUR SHOES?

BRANDON, YOUR ACTING SERIOUSLY SUCKS. HAHAHA.

SANTO, TSK! I THOUGHT YOU SAY YOU MEETING YOUR INDO FRIEND?

SANTO:YUP! WILUSTY! HAHAHA.

*PRESENTS TIME!*

EVERYONE GAVE ME THEIR PRESENTS AND I WAS SO HAPPY.

I LOVE PRESENTS AND CARDS!

THERE WAS SO MANY CARDS! <3

then i went into the room and played. :D:D:D:D:D

suddenly all of them came in with a cheesecake!!!!!! <3<3<3

they baked it leh! omgod damn sweeeeeeeet. :):):)

they sang the birthday song and i made 3 wishes. ;)

1.i hope everyday is my birthday and i could spend it this way! simple but memorable. (Y)

okay i know it's stupid!

the last two shall be a secret. :P

HAHHAHA. WE ATE THE CAKE AND BRANDON KEPT EMPHASISING THAT HE POUND THE DIGESTIVE BISCUIT LIKE SOME NONYA.

HAHAHA.

WE HAD SO MUCH FUN PLAYING!!!!!

then... someone said: JENNIS! THERE'S A VIP HERE! LOOK HERE.

*LOOK OVER AT THE DOOR*

ANDREEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!~~~

HAHAHA. I WAS SO HAPPY! BEC HE REALLY COULDNT COME!

BUT HE CAME JUST TO PASS ME A ROSE AND A CARD, AND TO SAY "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" :):):)

I WAS DAMN TOUCHED. :D

back to playing and suddenly...

*CHANEL AND MADELINE WAS AT THE DOOR*

HAHAHHA. THEY GAVE ME A SUPER HUGE PRESENT! :):):)

mad came down after her lessons which touched me very much! <3

WE PLAYED WII THROUGHOUT AND CAMWHORED. ;)

ALVIN WAS SO ADDICTED TO THE BOXING THAT HE CAUSE A CRACK IN THE LCD. :O

BEC HE KEPT PUNCHING THE TV. HAHAHA.

ME: LUCKILY ALVIN YOU DONT HAVE THIS AT HOME. IF NOT I THINK YOUR MAMA NEED TO CHANGE HER TELEVISION OFTEN. :P

THEN EVERYONE LAUGHED. HAHAHA.

I HAD SO MUCH FUN YESTERDAY AND I THINK IT'S THE BEST CELEBRATION EVER.

SO MINMING, PLEASE DONT WORRY ABT IT.

I REALLY LOVE IT ALOT. :)<3

okay and pictures of presents! ;)

sorry for this looooong post! it's been long since i've blogged such a long one. :D

i look forward to wednesday too! i have a date with sheryl!

this is also counted as part of my celebration okay!

and it'll definitely perfect the celebration! <3

2010-09-04T22:24:00.000-07:00

OLD FRIENDS.

i actually felt happy, like omgod?

now i feel quite sad. bec true, close friends are suppose to know what you like and want, isnt it?

and everyone could see that i value old friends more, but you don't.

2010-09-03T20:19:00.000-07:00

6th. :)

WOOOOO I CAN'T WAIT TO THAT DAY!!!! :)
but I don't like growing up :(:(:(
hope it's gonna be good! please don't rain :(

2010-08-31T05:03:00.000-07:00

-forget. :(

cause I remember every word that you said, it all just keeps spinning around in my head.
but it don't matter what I'd try to do, I keep on forgetting to forget abt you.
and I don't wanna think abt you so much, all the things we do.
just when I think abt someone new, I keep on forgetting to forget abt you.

sighh.

2010-08-29T04:32:00.000-07:00

I WANT TO DO ALOT OF THINGS NOW!!!!!

yes at this period of time, it's stupid. :P
SIGHHH.

I want to....
1)go prawning! :):):)
2)buffet! food marathon! :D
3)watch movies!!!!! (damn feel like!!!!!! :( )
4)hang out late.

emmm... I thought of alot!
but I forgot!!!! :(

2010-08-26T02:24:00.000-07:00

I WANNA SHOOT SINGTEL!!!!! >:(

now I can't msgggg :(:(:(

2010-08-21T21:14:00.001-07:00

LIFE AFTER YOU.

last time we talked, the night that I walked,
burns like an iron in the back of my mind.
I must have been high.
thinking abt the better times, I must have been out of my mind.

:(

2010-08-21T07:53:00.000-07:00

KILL ME.

I can't forget. I still can't.
i can't get over you. I still can't.
:(

I still miss who I thought he was. yes.
I kinda miss how we used to talk. yes.

so, kill me please.

2010-08-19T04:06:00.000-07:00

TAYLOR <3

I LOVE THISSS! :)

hidden message behind taylor's songs:
-teardrops on my guitar: he will never know
-cold as you: time to let go
-love story: someday I'll find this
-forever and always: still miss who I thought he was

LOVE THIS!!!!!
you're not sorry: she can have you
(this one rocks) :)

2010-08-17T06:13:00.000-07:00

TIME.

omgod! 8 more days left to prelim and like what? 2 more months to O levels?
and I still don't feel like touching my homework at all when i reached home. :(
although every single time, in school, I'll tell myself "study history today."
"study literature tomorrow."
"do math."
HAHAHA. DAMN CRAP. :(
I've gotta stop procrastinating :(
there's really, literally, NO MORE TIME!!!! :(:(:(

2010-08-12T04:54:00.000-07:00

I.WANNA.SCREAM.IT.OUT

I
TOLD
MYSELF,
DON'T
EVER
CRY
AGAIN
FOR
THIS
BASTARD
NO
MATTER
HOW
BADLY
IT
HURTS
ME.

2010-08-11T05:08:00.000-07:00

YOU'RE NOT SORRY.

idk what have I done to deserve all these shit from you again.
or maybe this is just you.
i was just too blind to think that you had changed.
I feel like shit now. after throwing a bitch fit and mad abt it.
it kinda hurt I think.
and i just couldn't forget.

"you used to shine so bright, but I watched all of it fade"
"but you put on quite a show, really had me going."

2010-08-09T18:51:00.000-07:00

DREAM.

I swear it really felt like a dream. and I wish it was.
i'm so sorry, I really am.
idk what's it that kept me hanging onto him either.
but I just couldn't get over it yet. but I'm trying. :(
the previous minute he was talking to me and I swear I felt damn happy. happier than happy.
and the next minute, this confession.
I was like, omgod.
the contrast of feeling was very obvious and clear.
I'm certain who I really like.

I'm not worth it and you seriously deserve better. :(
I know it's not abt qualities. k take it as I've low self-esteem then.

I don't want to hurt you. you're way too fine.
I don't want to waste your time, honestly.
I don't want to make you a "substitute" for me to forget him.
I don't want to force myself to go with you when I'm obviously not into you at all.
I don't want to distract you, you're here to study.
I don't want to lose this friendship in anyway.
I don't want to heed their advice to "try" not bec I'm stubborn.
I see what's gonna happen next. nothing good.
I don't want to "培养感情" cause I want the feeling beforehand and not after.
just bec they say we are going to be perfect together, it doesn't make us a perfect match.
it's better to stay like this.

I'm sorry that you know abt him.
and i swear every single word you've said made me damn guilty.
I felt like slapping myself.
SIGHHH HOW?????? :(

2010-08-09T06:38:00.000-07:00

GURLZXZX.

sad songs, phone calls, text messages, homework, days where you can’t be fucked.
tears, loneliness, bad days, and faggots who wont stfu.
facebook, msn, anything to do with internet.
food, school, lectures, fights and silent nights.
shopping, clothes, being broke.
always having that shit feeling, then work & sleep.
falling for dickheads, plus pms.
backstabbing bitches, family problems & being ‘not good enough’.
going to sleep, and not wanting to wake up.
shoes, dead mornings, staying up, good days ending badly.
this is a girls’ life.

true? :)

2010-08-07T09:28:00.000-07:00

I'D LIE. ♥

"he tells me abt his night, I count the colours in his eyes.
& I could tell you his favorite colour's green.
he loves to argue, born on the seventeenth.
his sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes.
but if you ask me if I loved him, I'd lie.
shouldn't a light goes on?
doesn't he knows I've had him memorized for so long?
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine.

I LOVE THIS PART!!!! :
he stands there then walks away.
my god if i could only say, I'm holding every breath for you.
he'd never tell you, but he can play guitar.
i think he can see through everything but my heart."

♥ ♥ ♥

2010-08-07T04:42:00.000-07:00

BLIND.

a past so deep that even i could not bury if I tried.
when my love for you is blind, and I couldn't make you see it.
couldn't make you see it, that I loved you more than you'll ever know.
a part of me died when I let you go.
only in hopes of dreaming, that everything would be like it was before.
but nights like this it seems to be slowly fleeting, they disappear as the reality is crashing down to the floor.

2010-08-06T20:51:00.000-07:00

TRUE.

you make me see what's I really feel inside me. :):):)
and I'm quite certain abt it now. :)
I'M A HAPPY GIRL NOW. :D

2010-08-04T04:22:00.000-07:00

CHANGE.

can it not change?
I'm too used to feeling every single way abt you and now it's just so different.
and I'm not very comfortable with it yet.

I've got over you.

2010-08-01T00:43:00.000-07:00

LIFE.

I'm not smart.
I'm not pretty.
I'm not tall.
I'm not skinny.
I'm not popular.
I'm not rich.
I'm not lucky.

but at least I'm happyyyy. :)
happy people are those who know how to be contented with what they have. :)

2010-07-31T06:26:00.001-07:00

BURNED OUT.

I freaking need some sleep.

2010-07-29T05:35:00.000-07:00

TRUTH.

it was some small little acts, but it clearly shows the plain truth to me.
apparently I don't mean that much at all.
I used to be the first person you turned to when you had problems.
You used to trust what I do and feel.
now we don't.
or was it since then that we started not to?
I saw the changes you made for me, no matter how hard they tried to convince me that you came to me bec you had no one else,
I believed in you.
yet you don't, or maybe you've never done so.
once or twice was quite enough.

I tried my best, I swear I did.
to make you see that you are actually my closest friend.
but it doesn't seemed to be enough, or making you realise.
do you really have so little faith in me?
we weren't used to be like this, but idk wthell went wrong.
you're right, things changed.

2010-07-26T03:43:00.000-07:00

when my world's falling apart,
when there's no light to break up the dark.
that's when I look at you.

when the waves are crashing the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore.
that's when I look at you.

2010-07-24T21:01:00.000-07:00

REDUNDANT.

UH-UH.

2010-07-18T05:13:00.000-07:00

♥; F.

went out with fanxin today!!!!! :):):):):)

although it was short... but it was great, fun, happy and awesome! (Y)

hehehe.

i ate alot of cheese today. ALL CHEESE ACTUALLY. :P

but cheese makes me happy. :D

okayyy..

gotta run! i havent finish my amath homework!

2010-07-18T05:02:00.000-07:00

"I wish you were here, but you're not, you're there. There doesn't know how lucky it is."

2010-07-16T21:37:00.000-07:00

SWEEEEET. (Y)

♥♥♥

2010-07-16T07:46:00.000-07:00

FAIRYTALEEEES.

thanks, you've done your part in making me happy.

a big part.

thank you.

2010-07-16T07:24:00.000-07:00

I LOVE IIIIIIIIIIIT! (L)

-when someone puts a smiley face right at the start of the msg.

-when someone tells me not to be sad/cheer up just bec i put a sad face.

-when someone who asks me how's my day after a long day out.

-when someone, no matter how busy they are, fork out some time to tell me "i thought of you, and i miss you suddenly."

-when someone put their arms around me neck and ask me, "are you okay?"

-when someone gives me a hug when i need it.

i feel so warm.

-when someone bothers to take note what i love and do it exactly the way it is, i swear i'll see it someday.

-when someone is like a "mind-reading" machine. :P

-when someone goes all length to keep me accompanied.

-when someone surprises me.

-when someone tells me they're lucky to have me in their life.

-when someone is so true that i dunt even have a single worry of who they really are behind the skins.

-when someone cares for me so much, even more than i cared for myself.

-when someone does all these things, i swear i'll love them TTM.

(L)

2010-07-16T06:56:00.000-07:00

CHILD.

THIS IS DAMN SWEET!!!!!

I FIND LAH. :P

HEHEHE. I WISH I'M STILL A CHILD. :(

-no counting down days to 'O' level.

-no worries of where to head next with my going-to-suck results

-no worries of not enough time to sleep, study, do homework

-dunt have to go through what i'm going through now.

-dunt have to worry if i eat too much and becomes fat

IT WAS SO MUCH HAPPIER AND CAREFREE.

When I was a boy,

Four houses down from me,

Was a family with an only child.

She was the only girl,

In this whole world that could make me smile.

2010-07-09T07:47:00.000-07:00

SORRY, BUT I REALLY AM DADDY'S GIRL.

IT'S A FACT.

BUT I'M PROUD TO BE ONE! (L)

THE ONLY PERFECT MAN IS SOMEONE WHO LOVES AND

CARES FOR ME UNCONDITIONALLY LIKE MY DADDY!

I LOVE HIM TTM! <3

2010-07-09T07:13:00.000-07:00

HEY DADDY!

FIRSTLY....

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY!!!!!!!!! ♥

7TH JULY!

i hope you'd read and cry upon reading this!!!!! :)

i love cakes and ice creams, more than chocolates and sweets.

but i love you, my daddy, more than cakes and ice creams, and anyone out there!

you were like my best friend,

1.someone whom i tell my secrets to without a doubt.

2.someone whom i can scold and curse at whoever i'm angry at and you'll talk reasons out with me and make me understand it's not always their fault.

3.someone whom i can rely on and laugh with without a care.

4.someone who brings me up without a complaint during these 15+ years.

5.someone who will tap my shoulder and tell me "hey, it's okay" whenever i did badly for my exams. :(

6.someone who motivates me to study hard bec i hope i can make him proud when he introduces to others that i'm his daughter.

7.someone whom i always find him naggy and talkative. bec when most daddy(s) tell their daughter fairytale stories since young, he never does. but he tells me about how his day was and make me fall asleep while listening. :P

8.someone who stands up for me whenever my mummy gets a little unreasonable/pms.

9.someone who seldom tells me his troubles bec he wants me to be happy.

10.someone who i nearly lost him thrice before knowing how great he had been.

11.someone whom never yells at me no matter how wrong i was.

12.someone who cares and loves me alot but doesnt shows it.

13.someone who tries his best to give me his best to satisfy my desires.

14.someone who cooks for me no matter how late or tired he is bec he doesnt want me to go to bed hungry.

15.someone whom i'm crying over now bec i was damn touched by what he had done.

DADDY, YOU MIGHT NOT KNOW.

BUT IN THESE 15+ YEARS, YOU'VE MADE UP A BIG PART OF MY LIFE.

A VERYYYYYYY BIG PART INDEED.

AND I LOVE YOU ALOT.

and i like it when after a long, tiring day,

i see your smile whenever i got home.

whenever you laugh retardedly at how tired i was,

whenever i smell the food you've cooked,

whenever you're around,

i'm lucky that i'm finally back home!

I LOVE YOU, DADDY LEE!!!!!!!!!!! (L)

2010-07-05T02:35:00.000-07:00

WHY DID I EVER DOUBT YOU?

it should have been-100%

2010-07-04T06:21:00.000-07:00

LIAR.

DO ALL LIARS BECOME LIKE THIS? :(

SIGHHHHHHHH.

i'm a sad girl. :(

2010-07-03T08:26:00.000-07:00

NEVER.

and yes, NEVER is a strong word, so i'm using it!
i really NEVER fantasize anything about what you expect me to.
i've NEVER take those conversation more than just a conversation.
i've NEVER see it more than a friend's concern.
i've NEVER never wanted to give up.
i've NEVER thought that it would be impossible to meet someone better.
i've NEVER thought of destroying anything here and now.

seriously, i've never.
there're 2 kinds of true friends, not just a single one.
1:someone who doesnt want you to get hurt, protective.
2:someone who just wants you to be happy, without thinking too much, cause ultimately, it's your happiness that they're concerned abt.

not being any single one does not make you any less true.
but i've never blame you, i've never stopped you.
bec i kept telling myself, "it's the way you cared for me."

2010-07-02T06:34:00.000-07:00

FALSE HOPE?

MAYBE? :(
they are all telling me, "stop chasing this dream. not gonna be yours."
i know. but i'm really not chasing.
i know my limits, i wont cross the line and i know my priority.
i'm not those kind.

2010-07-02T06:22:00.000-07:00

YAY. I FINALLY GET INTO BLOGGER! :D>

YAY.
like finally i can get into this annoying blogger!
hahaha. i want tumblr! but idk how to function it(dunt exactly know. :( )
so anyway!!!!!!!!
went to find yvonne in the canteen after school and taught asei chinese oral!
hahahaha. :D
about 1 hour? :)
then met up with carmen and sheryl but only sheryl went with us to clementi for long johns instead. :D
*small "quarrel" with yvonne over something. :P*
hehehehe.
then went with sheryl to wcplaza and ate SAKAE SUSHI BUFFET!!!!!!!!! :):):):):)

OKAY OKAY DUNT GIVE THE ":O" FACE!!!!!!!
yes i went pigging out with sheryl. :P
hehehehhe.
I LOVE FOOD!
then slack around and came home! (:
okay boring but was happy and fun to me! <3>

2010-06-23T05:58:00.000-07:00

She's lucky. :)

I bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about.
And she's got everything that I have to live without.
She better hold him tight, give him all her love.
Look in those beautiful eyes, and know she's lucky.

2010-06-23T05:19:00.000-07:00

NEED YOU NOW.

HEHEHEHE.
minming introduced me this song!(although it's very long ago but the lyrics very nicee!!!!!)
hehehhe. and bec she's the one who introduced me this song, it makes it even nicer!
♥

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

2010-06-23T05:06:00.000-07:00

♥I MISS THIS SONG SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!♥

2010-06-21T06:43:00.000-07:00

♥C.S.Y.

HELLO!
went out with c/sheryls on saturday! :)
went to meet sheryl 1st at je lib and INTENDED to do homework.
but obviously we didnt in the end. hehehhe.
waited for cheryl to come and we head to bugis to play pool!!!!!!!!!! :):):)
YAY. ^^v
played for awhile and went for dinner cause cheryl that pig wanna eat. :P
went to kfc and we chatted ALOT!!!!!!
about 1 hour i think. :O
but so fun!!!! hehehe. then sheryl say she felt like taking neoprints so we went! :D

*****

hehehehe.
then walked around for awhile but was very tired already.
so they wanted to head home but sheryl suggested going for dessert! :D
so they ate cakes and i went home with sheryl after that! :)

2010-06-19T21:18:00.000-07:00

IMPOSSIBLE;

I remember years ago,

someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love.

I did, I did.

And you were strong and I was not.

My illusion, my mistake.

I was careless, I forgot, I did.

And now when all is done, there is nothing to say.

You have gone and so effortlessly, you have won.

You can go ahead tell them,

Tell them all I know now, shout it from the roof top.

Write it on the sky love, all we had is gone now.

Tell them I was happy, and my heart is broken, all my scars are open.

Tell them what I hoped would be, impossible.

Falling out of love is hard, falling for betrayal is worst.

Broken trust and broken hearts I know, I know.

Thinking all you need is there, building faith on love is worst.

Empty promises will wear I know and know when all is gone,

there is nothing to say, and if you're done with embarrassing me,

onn your own you can go ahead tell them.

2010-06-18T03:50:00.000-07:00

♥FANXIN, YOU ROCK!!!!!♥

this babeh on the right spam me with 20 msges of love quotes!!!!! ♥
(so she still owes me 3 :P)
and i'm soooooooooo touched while my phone says:
"sms inbox is full! please delete old msges to receive new ones!"
hehehehe.
anyway....
this pig says...

1.i love it when you look at me because i know for a second, i crossed your mind.
2.sometimes even though ut seems that the world has given you enough reasons to move on, you still hold on.
3.sick of crying, tired of trying. so i'm smiling, but inside i'm dying.
4.be with someone who knows what they have, when they have you.
5.a wise girl kisses but doesnt love, listens but doesnt believes and leaves before she is left.
6.sometimes you just have to let them win, because losing the argument is easier than losing them.
7.telling someone we love them is always put aside. and soon, we realize we lost our chance and regret.
8.true love loves more even when it hurts much. true love is still true even to the point of letting go.
9.love is about realizing that an imperfect person can make your life perfect.
10.it's amazing to know that no matter how hard it is, loving is the simplest reason why you always find yourself smiling.
11.it's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to be wasted on the wrong one.
12.sometimes, love is unfair. the more you sacrifice, the more you get hurt. even if you're given your best, it's still not enough.
13.sometimes, no matter how badly you hate it or how badly it hurts; you'll love this person without regret, for the rest of your life.
14.take time to listen t your heart. but ask yourself who makes you happy and who makes you feel loved.
15.when you want someone who can never be yours, it only gives you pain. that's why, be careful in loving someone!
16.everyday is a good day to fall in love if it's with you.
(i like this alot! :))
17.distance is crap when love is true.
18.no matter how badly someone is hurting you, sometimes letting them go hurts even more.
19.what i'm asking for is for you to love me, for all of me. the parts of me you like, the parts of me you don't, the parts of me that cannot be all you hope me to be. that's all i'm asking for.
20.don't get mad when a girl cares too much, start worrying when she starts not to give a fuck.

WARNING:NO RIPPING! :P
i love her sooooooo much!!!!!
idk how to explain, but it's hell lots!!!!
♥♥♥♥♥

2010-06-17T02:38:00.000-07:00

WHEN YOU'RE BORN, YOU CRY AND THE WORLD REJOICE.
LIVE YOUR LIFE IN SUCH A WAY THAT WHEN YOU DIE, THE WORLD CRY AND YOU REJOICE. :)

2010-06-12T02:28:00.000-07:00

LUCKY. :)

this was the only nicee photo. :(

HAHAHA.
what's wrong with that chinese word over there? :O

♥ Minming piggggg!

IN YOUR FACEEEEEEE. :)

2010-06-12T01:44:00.000-07:00

TWO AWESOME MOVIES IN THE WEEK! :)

TGIF! :)
hehehehe. nicee show!!!!!!!!!
♥

CUTE SHOW!!!!!!!! :)
8TH JUNE WITH SHERYL MAMA. :D
♥

2010-06-10T01:36:00.000-07:00

TOMORROW'S FRIDAY AND I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!

yayayayyayay.

tomorrow's friday! hope it'll be awesome and fun!!!!!

but i think it will certainly be!

♥

2010-06-07T02:23:00.001-07:00

I PROMISE, I WOULD. :)

2010-06-07T02:09:00.000-07:00

TELL ME, HOW SHOULD I REACT?

a random complaint.
but you came to me. am i the last person you could have thought of?
how do you expect me to react then?

2010-06-07T01:41:00.000-07:00

HI RETARD! HAHAHHA.

♥♥♥

2010-06-06T05:37:00.000-07:00

I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D
do you? :)

2010-06-06T04:47:00.001-07:00

sorry i did something retarded to my blog and i've lost all links. :(
tag me your link if i hadnt link you okay! :)
sorry!

2010-06-06T04:24:00.000-07:00

THANK GOD, THERE'S SO MANY MORE. :)

thanks to you, you made me see that there were so many more people that is worth my care bec they'll bother to care for me back. :)
you made me learn to cherish those people i never cherished.
5th june, the day i stopped trying.
i felt so much happier.
thanks babes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

2010-06-05T07:04:00.000-07:00

TO MY 4 YEARS LOVELY! <3

i'm sorry. :(
i know i hadnt been treating you the way you wanted me to, but from now on, i'll try my best. :(
sorry to have neglected you.
but i promise i'd cherish it more now.
sorry about those times, i didnt mean it. i'd fork out more time for you, and we'll do silly things like how we used to do in sec two. :)
sorry. we'll stick tgt like how we used to. :)
love you! <3

2010-06-05T06:37:00.000-07:00

I'M GONNA SPAM EVERYTHING I WANNA SAY HERE.

i'm not sure if you would even bother and come and read this, but i just wanna say this.
i know i might have treated you badly back then, but i swear it wasn't intentional.
but now what you've been doing, it's obvious to me that you did it consciously.
idk, i dunt wanna probe anymore.
no point. i took the initiative to talk it out with you, bec i cared, every single time.
but what was the attitude i got back?
"okay idc." sighhh.
i dunt even know WHAT am i to you, bec i'm darn sure you dunt even treat me as a "WHO".
you can spend the whole time talking to every single one, even when i already tried and done my best talking to you.
you can show that you dunt bother at all.
sighh. every single time i thrash things out with you, i made an effort to change.
you dunt see it, bec why? you dunt even care.
sighh. yes, i really shouldnt waste my time and effort getting upset over you, trying to change, talking things out and whatsoever on you, when you dunt even care.
i should spend my time more on those who cared for me.
sighh. idk, you might still think it's my fault, ya i dunt deny.
it takes 2 hands to clap.
but i swear across my heart that i've tried my best, i've tried to change, i've tried to talk to you more, i've tried to care for you more, i've really treated you as my good friend.
but you will never see it. you've got so much more "good friends" and solid friendship to manage.
mine is just so insignificant.
idc anymore, i'm too tired.

:(

2010-05-29T22:24:00.000-07:00

FRIENDS? ARE YOU SERIOUS?

if you were me, you would have kick up a big fuss about it.
maybe to you, it doesnt matter. bec you dunt stand at my perspective.
and why did you do that for? get closer with someone else? :)
ha. if you had seen me as a friend, you wouldnt have done tt.
betray.
thanks to you. this trust is unlikely to be back.

2010-05-28T07:37:00.000-07:00

I KNOW. I KNOW. I REALLY KNOW.

but tt doesnt mean i dunt have the right to feel this upset.
omg. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
it's falling apart. and do you know?

2010-05-21T06:37:00.000-07:00

i hope it's really okay. :(

i felt like a crybaby. sigh. it's not tt i dunt wanna say the reason why i cried, but i know, when i tell them, they'll just say, "stupid girl. not worth it. cheer up. :)"

sigh. but i hope yesterday would be the last time seriously. :'(

i'm tired, really very tired.

i want a break, so i'm drifting apart.

no sense of belonging, i dunt see where i stand.

and did i hear you asking me something?

1.for the sake of asking.

2.for the sake of starting a conversation.

3.for the sake of others.

4.for the sake of the term "close friends"?

realised it? oh come on, out of all these reasons, it was never "for the sake of jennis. :)"

sigh.

ask yourself before asking me.

you just dunt get it. and i'm also too tired to talk it out.

just let me give it up, okay? :(

2010-05-19T02:59:00.000-07:00

EMOTION OUTBURST.

haha. xinmin said this when i cried. :(
but i think so too. :(
it's a heartache, you just dunt understand. they always tell me it's not worth it, but apparently i valued it so much and tts why it makes me cry. :(
everytime this comes to my mind. sigh.
i bet you dunt even know i'm talking about you here right.
but, you are worth it, i'm sure abt it. :(
but can i really not care anymore? it's tiring, painful. sigh.

2010-05-14T21:15:00.000-07:00

I NEVER TOLD YOU.

but i never told you, what i should have said.
no i never told you, i just held it in.
and now, i missed everything about you.
cant believe that i still want you.
and after all the things we've been through, i missed everything about you.

without you.

you make it hard to see, where i belong to.
when i'm not around you, it's like i'm not with me.

<3

2010-05-14T21:12:00.001-07:00

i'm so tired. been walking round so much for the past 2 days. :(

hanging so much in vivo. :(

and now the class outing is there again. sigh.

but i'll go lah. :)

since it's the last one. :'(

okay should wake up already. :)

2010-05-14T21:08:00.000-07:00

cried it out, it felt damn good. :)

if only i could scream that day in that place, i would have done so.

i would have got rid of everything inside me. :)

but tt day when i cried so badly, it felt damn shiok. (:

2010-05-14T20:59:00.000-07:00

PICTURES (:

OKAY SINCE TT IDIOT SHERYL IS TAKING SO LONG TO UPLOAD THESE PICTURES, I'LL DO IT. :)

HAHAHA.

okay this was very long ago, i think. :(

HAHAHA.

sorry sheryl. "WASTED" so many of your films.

went study with sheryl donald and qiguang that day.

and took these. :)

2010-05-14T20:33:00.000-07:00

YAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!! EXAMS' OVER!!!!!! :D

HAHAHA.
yay like finally it's over after two weeks of torture. :D:D:D:D:D
hehe anyway went to fanxin and minming's birthday party at king louis last night.

AWESOME NIGHT!!!!! :D

hehe. went home and then to xinmin's hse to "dress up". :(
hahaha. then went to vivo to meet jessie they all. :)
bought a cake and went to the dinner! :D
haha. ALOT OF PEOPLE WENT!!!!! :)
14 i think. after dinner i took the cake out! :D

TO MINMING: SEE!!!!!! I TOLD YOU YOU'D HUG ME FOR THAT! ;)
HAHAHA.

okay but i dunt have the pictures of ytd, we took alot! :D
will post it next time if i get those pictures ;)
went home with brandon and minming around 11+ :)

I LOVE YOU, XINMIN~!!!!!!! ♥

2010-05-08T02:39:00.000-07:00

ya so I think I should spend more time on those people who cares for me much more.
And sorry to tt person who said tt sentence to me. :(
sorry. :(

2010-05-08T02:22:00.000-07:00

sigh.....
Okay, from today or ytd, I gave up okay?
Everyone here, and everything abt you. :)
someone once told me "I dunt care anymore, but I realised I could not, but if I really dunt wanna care anymore, bec it hurts, alot."
it was such a strong and harsh sentence....
Tt I guess I'd never forget. :'(
and it really made me cried alot.... "idc anymore."
sigh. But I guess you have no idea how hurt it gets.

But now, I wanna say this sentence to you, "idc anymore."
it really tires me, it really breaks me down, every single time.
But i've got over it, after these few days....
I've thought through, it's not an overnight decision. :)
but I guess I felt so much better now. :)
happier. I won't spend my time reading that anymore, cause I dunt wanna see and ponder over every single thing from it and make my day suck bec of it. :)

sigh sorry.

& dunt tell me you're sorry, cause you're not.
You're only sorry when you've got caught.

Game's over :)

2010-05-03T22:43:00.000-07:00

hey, were you talking about me? :(
if it is, I'm sorry, but i did not say I was tired!!!!!
sigh.
Idk how to make this better anymore. :(
there's so many more things Ive yet to deal with. :(
sigh.
But you really are still my closest friend, but I'm not sure if tts also the case for you.....
Ya everything is going back to the past... No worse than the past....
Urgh. you dunt need me anymore, I can see.

Everything is already gone.
:(

2010-04-30T02:01:00.000-07:00

URGH. FML MAN.

you've got seriously no idea how sucky these few days were.
like seriously......
I'm feeling all out of my elements, and I've been crying so much, no too much lately. :(
trying to figure out just where the hell I've went wrong.
Tell me, anyone, just tell me straight in my face, just where i've gone wrong.
I've never felt this way before, this badly. :'(
and no one here even understand any single shit inside me.
SIGH.
Just when I thought everything is back to normal, good and happy altogther, something bad is gonna to happen next minute, and i've no freaking idea why.
It's like everything i'm doing is gonna be a mistake next.
WHY?! URGH!

Everything, evryone is already gone.
Thanks to you, jennis lee :)
SIGH. I need a breathing space. i need someone to talk to, giving me advices. I need someone's shoulder for me to cry on.
I need a empty room so tt I could scream and shout and hear my own echo and laugh at my pathetic life.
I need you people and my smile and laughter back.
Come back. :(

2010-04-23T08:01:00.001-07:00

i love it when you makes me feel this way. :D

2010-04-23T07:33:00.000-07:00

42 things girls want:

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her
4. Hug her.
5. Hold her.
6. Laugh with her.
7. Invite her everywhere.
8. Hangout with her and your friends together.
9. Smile with her.
10. Take pictures with her.

11. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
12. Always smile and say hi whenever you see her.
13. Hug her from behind around the waist.
14. Tell her she's beautiful.
15. Tell her the way you feel about her.
16. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
17. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.
18. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.
19. Make her feel loved.
20. DON'T lie to her

21. DON'T cheat on her!
22. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
23. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
24. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.
25. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too
26. When you are ALONE hold her close.
27. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.
28. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
29. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
30. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle

31. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
32. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible
33. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
34. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
35. Take her for LONG walks at night.
36. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.
37. Rub her back--feels good
38. Give her your coat if she's cold.
39. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she's BEAUTIFUL
40. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.

41. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind.
42. Don't ignore her or be nerveous around her-everything is going to be okay.

-WERE YOU THINKING ABOUT SOMEONE? :)
hehe i like those in red. :D

2010-04-23T07:23:00.000-07:00

A PLACE, WITH LOTS OF MEMORIES.

NAPFA TODAY!!!!!
i thought i would really vomit cause since early morning i'm already damn full. :(
but didnt.... not really i think.

1st run(3 weeks ago): 19min 26sec
OMG. VERY LOUSY I KNOW! but very long never run already mah!!!! :(
2nd run:18 min!!!!!!

hahaha. i know it's still quite lousy. but..... I IMPROVED OKAY. :)
AND I PASSED!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D
hehe. thank god i'm not 16 YET. HAHAHHA. :D
okay, went for emath focus after school and out with sheryl and carmen to wcpark and wcplaza after that. :D
YAY. i had fun! :D
hehe. went coffee bean and saw crazy krisha, talked and laughed alot. :)
reached home at 8 and thanks to sheryl for tt drink i'm having a terrible terrible stomach ache. :'(
OMG.
it's killing me..... :(

2010-04-17T23:51:00.000-07:00

after this year, i'm sure i would feel easier to let it go.

so you dunt have to worry. :)

cause i'm already done dreaming and crying, i've grown up more.

i dunt cry anymore, but sincerely feel happy for you. =)

2010-04-17T23:40:00.000-07:00

I'M A HAPPY GIRL! :D

HAHAHA.

okay, sounds stupid i know. :P

reasons?

1)i talked things out with her. :)

2)thank god for surrounding me with so much wonderful things. :)

(i'm not a holy person)

3)i'm happy with what i'm having.

actually i felt lucky. :)

although i might not have alot of things, but i'm satisfied with what i'm having now!♥

i love them ALOT. ♥

2010-04-17T23:29:00.001-07:00

okay... i remembered promising to upload pictures of the baking day with tt crazy idiot! :P
HAHAHA. okay lah....

DUNT LAUGH AH!

SEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

AT FIRST SO NICE LOR. I STILL SPEND SO MUCH TIME ARRANGING AND CHOOSING THE M&M COLOURS!!!!! :(

THEN.............................

BECOME THIS FAKE "LASAGNA"!!!!! :(:(:(:(:(

sigh, heartbreak. :(

HAHAHA.

but thank god this looks and tastes better.

i thought the first one would always be the first failure.

but no! :O

turned out great! :)

hehe. :D

EDIBLE LAH!!!!!!!

wait, am i wrong to post the failure pictures first? :S

i had a great day with minming idiot. :)

-10th april! ♥

2010-04-17T22:51:00.000-07:00

okay okay...
i know i havent been blogging much about daily stuffs but loads of problems. :P
hehe sorry. so yup!
let's start! :D

SPORTS DAY!
-16TH April :)

HAHAHA. it was a damn great day!!!! :D (as expected)
although a little off in the morning but thank god we still turn out great and fine! :D
and i had lots of fun! :D
hehe.

and i changed my opinion/impression of someone.

someone whom i thought i'd dislike her bec of you.

but she was so different, from you.

ha, you sucker.

she was so much better, i think you needa reflect on yourself.

went for macs breakfast with arumi, alvin, madeline, xinmin, xy(?), yulin, minming, chanel, ande, gaya, santo and jessie. i think that's abt it? cant really remember, hehe sorry. :P
i was late and thanks xinmin for waiting for me!!!! :D
haha. and YAY! it's like finally i get to eat macs breakfast, been craving for it for sooooooooooooooooo long!!!! :(
okay, sound like a pig. :P
so yup, it was raining and me, madeline, arumi, xy and yulin shared an umbrella and go over. :)
haha. went over to jaca to find minming they all and we enjoyed ourselves! :D
okay....

PHOTOS!

MAGGIE, MINMING AND ME! :D
OMG. i look so spastic. :(

okay okay, i know i smiled very fake. :P

I LIKE THIS PICTURE!!!!!
♥LOVELY!♥

went pool with sheryl, yvonne, carmen, seksuan, yankeng, donald, weilin, sean, qiguang and candra to pool after that!!!!! :D

cheryl came to find us for awhile and left.

went with sheryl, donald and weilin after that for dinner at westmall. :D

sheryl sent me to clementi!!!!! :D

or is it i sent her there? :O

hahaha. okay anyway, today was awesome!!!!!! ♥

2010-04-17T21:54:00.000-07:00

I'M SORRY, BABE.
BUT I STILL LOVE YOU ALOT!♥

haha. cant believe i garnered all my courage and started talking about it.
which took me quite long, thinking so hard.
like for... months? :O
cause i've seen failures in doing so, so i'm afraid, very.
but..... unexpectedly.... you're darn great!!!!!!!
awesome and sweet!!! :D:D:D:D:D
hahaha. you really touched me deep down! :)
nope, it's not solely your fault. i think it's bec i've been thinking too much. :P
hehe sorry.
but dunt worry! i'll continue to understand and understand more in the future!
and yes! we'll still have lots of fun hanging around together!!!!!!!!!

-hey babe, this is for you! :)
♥♥♥love you!!!!!!♥♥♥

2010-04-17T04:47:00.000-07:00

screwed up,
messed up.
And ya, who cares? :(

2010-04-17T04:31:00.000-07:00

DILEMMA.

sigh i'm still wondering if I should tell you this......
shall I wait and see when you'll guess that i'm talking abt you when I think it's gonna take a thousand years before you even come and read this....
Sigh.
And I've been thinking abt it since sooooooooooooooo long ago.
will I be inviting trouble? :(
i'm afraid, to lose a friend....
Sigh, dunt bother so much jennis, and just feel happy with what I'm having now.
then maybe it won't affect me this much?

pms? LOL.
nooooooooo over my fat body man.
Urgh, boring post. :(
no one gives a shit. :(

2010-04-17T00:30:00.000-07:00

HELLO!!!!!
hehe i'm out with a crazy idiot now! :)

okay lah..... Anyway..
you, complains abt her.
But well, that shows that you care abt her.
A real good friend.
You, ya you dunt complain abt me, nor bad mouthed abt me behind my back.
It's good and I really do appreciate that. :)
but as time pass, I realise to be in het state was probably better?
being too perfect may not be that good afterall?
Sigh.
Told you my life sucks. :(
good close friend. Happy and fun to go along with.
I thought I was one too.
But maybe I was wrong, just slightly more than a hi-bye friends, maybe that's bec we had to face each other everyday.
Idk. :(
do I bother? I think i do. Or I wouldn't care now. :(
sigh.
But I really treated you as a good good friend.
Sigh. :(
I'm not complaining, really not. Just........ Ya.....
Dunt be miataken. But I doubt you'll even read this. :)

okay I feel like sleeping already. :(
a small small crush. :o
but nope, not gonna share. :p

2010-04-10T05:26:00.000-07:00

BAKING WITH OWL!!!!!!! :D

HAHAHAHAHA.
fun day today!!!!! Yayayaayayayyayay!!!! :D
hahaha.
bake cookies and muffins!!!! :D
try to update the pictures another time Kay;)
haha. :D

today is fun!!!! ;)
but the m&m cookie was screwed up!!!!!! :@
sigh!
look like lasagna. :(

2010-04-10T05:21:00.000-07:00

ACHEIVERS' DAY!!!!!! :D
-yesterday :)

went to xinmin's house after school!!!!!
hehe so fun! ;)
went to holland to meet brandon dino and andre. :)
wanted to eat some Italian restaurant but was damn expensive! :(
went swensens after that but the stupid swensens say needa wait for 1 hour!!!!!
OMG YOU MUST BE CRAZY!
so we went to eat coffee club in the end!!!!
Yumyum! :P
I HATE COFFEE CLUB'S GLASS!! ;(

went with minming chanel and jessie after that for macs dinner!!!!! :D
HAHAHAHA OMG FATTENING X1000000000 :(
GREAT DAY!!!!! :D
I wished it was better. but was dead beat already. :(

2010-04-06T02:03:00.000-07:00

SO BORED!!!!!!!!!!!! :(
can I not do my homework? :(
hahaha.
Nobody bothers to leave a tag!!!!!!!! :(
so sad. :(

anyway thanks minming pig for "cheering me up" in your blog! ;)

2010-04-06T01:29:00.000-07:00

today's a great and kinda bad day! :(

just finish BBQ chicken with two pigs- Amelia and Sheryl! :)
HAHAHA.
God, so many homework to be done!!!!!!!!! :(:(:(:(:(
got to run babes! ;)

hand in hand, I saw it.
Or was I seeing the wrong thing? doubt so........ :(

2010-04-05T01:47:00.000-07:00

I hope.......
1)this stupid "pickachu" thing would be gone by tomorrow!!!!! :(
you know it's killing me?!?!?!?!
haha not pain, but ppl's constant asking "omg what happened?!"
:(
2)this thing to be gone
3)this thing to disappear FOREVER!!!!!!! :(

HAHAHAHA!!!!!
I'm out with minming this crazy idiot now. :s
hehe somehow I want an iPhone now. :p
bur maybe wait for the 4G? :)
haha. :D
OMG I'm damn fulllllllllll!!!!!! :(:(:(:(:(
P/S:old Chang kee caused pregnancy? :o
haha okay retarded. :p

okay I promised to blog abt minming!!!!!
So.......
Ya :p
but anyway thanks idiot babe! ;)

2010-04-05T01:43:00.000-07:00

Hi i'm crazy minming here!!!!!
And just now is also I blog one!!!!! Hahahahahahaha! ;)

2010-04-05T01:41:00.000-07:00

I love Min Ming so so so much! 

2010-04-01T23:55:00.000-07:00

I CANT WAIT TO EVENING.
OMG.

i'm dying.

2010-04-01T23:39:00.000-07:00

FLAG DAY TOMORROW.

oh god.
boring. :(

"my heart's too hungry for this food that wont ever ever come."